Having an addiction is different than “doing drugs.” There are many different levels of substance use disorders. That some think addiction and “doing drugs” are the same is part of the problem.
In my recovery, I’d say I’m in the earliest of early stages. I’m starting to face the fact that someday it has to stop. I’m starting to face the challenges I’ll be facing when that first day comes.
I don’t remember exactly when it happened, it was a process, not a blinding revelation. It has been a long journey but I eventually learned that I could not control the wheel of life.